Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Ladies Diary

I waNt to Believe there is such a tHiNg as a REAL 'Golden Age'
particularly in this ooak GaRdeN aNd House of Abraham
November aNd December this past year seemed to roll by in a more absolute solitude
Strangely enough Christmas seemed a bit mixed bag of emotions, a lot of journal writing to sooth the anxiety of not being with tHe oNes I truly LoVe but also reMeMberiNg the horrific meMoRies of being hoMeless, cold aNd paralyzed having scary hard drug/alcoholics literally 
stealing the clothes right off my back as the Odgen Police aNd hoMeless shelter watched for their amusement.  October-December will always BE stamped out permanently on my brain as
the moNths of being persecuted aNd medically aNd religiously tortured aNd lied to by the LDS Church aNd State. Raped aNd attacked within the Salt Lake Court System by what I would call the Prince of Darkness posing as a helper aNd 'fRieNd' fraud FBI Agent going by the naMe of 
Kent Jorgensen but has seNse tHeN taken up a new sociopathic mask. Even turning him into the South Jordan Police with my giRlfRieNd being present wasn't enough because tHe Police were in on the whole controlled attack in exploiting aNd parading aNd tossing ME around aNd not protecting or sustaining my rights aNd ignoring aNd violating my Legal Will aNd never given aNy due process in a court of law aNd every promise set forth in a man made bible was tossed out aNd broken. 
tHe entire court system fRoM Salt Lake to Utah County had displayed themselves as a nightmare of False Flag corruption, deceivers aNd the all mighty serpent.  
A well orchestrated giant sociopath thief, propaganda war hate cRiMe of slander aNd terror aNd torture upon tHe Human Civil Disability Rights of WoMeN aNd MotHeRs.  
On going aNd all staged to cover up tHe cRiMes that had been doNe in tHe 'Book of Life'
To display a False Flag Jesus through corrupt aNd forced 'mind control', manipulation, violent submission aNd abusive acts, then to coNtiNue abusing tHe WoMaN publicly 'gaslighting' her because SHE kNoWs of their evil 'acting aNd staged media ways'
Treaty nor Trust will ever BE ever again.  I miss my Children aNd hurt so bad that my rights were never protected, defended or preserved aNd was made to look like an unfit MotHeR in order to protect aNd cover up the corrupt systems cRiMes upon a Legal Disability Will, all while fighting for Human Civil Disability rights for ME aNd WE THE PEOPLE aNd should of received as a child or having the courage aNd stReNgth in divorcing a cheating sociopath ex husband or walking away fRoM a sociopath cheating drunk fraud fake Jesus aNd sounding tHe trumpet to my Heavenly FatHeR for protection and aid fRoM corrupt government aNd religion, doesn't make an unfit parent but that of a bRaVe Warrior WoMaN who died in sacrifice aNd real true LoVe aNd was reborn in bravery trying to save aNd protect those SHE truly LoVes aNd defend aNd preserve 
a better aNd healthier Constitution for her children aNd give to tHeM of what was never given aNd stolen fRoM their very own MotHeRs birthright.  
Every day aNd year I ache to have my arms around my children again aNd oNe day dReAm of building a new aNd solid gaRdeN aNd foundation with tHeM without the systems corruption aNd fraud ways.  For now as evil as the system is, I caN't trust or Believe in anything they say or DO because I can SEE that it's ALL staged aNd built on more lies, media aNd propaganda in order to rebuild their reputation of cheating aNd torturing aNd treading on a MotHeRs 
Legal Disability Will,  let aloNe not protect her truly with proper justice or redemption or closure of any kind.  Everything is sociopathically controlled by tHe corrupt LDS Church aNd System aNd fRoM that I doN't kNoW what will become of my Children.  I AM not to make treaty with the very corrupt system that violated my rights to begin with aNd that includes Wasatch Mental Health aNd tHe LDS Church aNd it's entire corrupt government.  I doN't even waNt to imagine the lies that they have built up around my children aNd have to leave it up to my Heavenly Father as to how tHe system is going to untangle their serpent ways aNd explain to my children the religious aNd medical aNd Land Law abuse aNd lies they inflicted on their MotHeR aNd of WE THE PEOPLE.  
All I know is that I pray everyday for this 'Book of Life' to BE restored aNd waNt my children to thrive aNd prosper aNd BE protected fRoM my ex abusive faMily aNd murderous abusive ex LDS MotHeR aNd to BE protected fRoM tHe serpent 'son of perdition' I waNt tHeM to BE blessed in a 'Golden Age' of true aNd REAL healthcare aNd BE protected fRoM tHe corrupt aNd deceitful ways of organized religion, as I remain walking in my duty of defending aNd preserving their resources on earth to secure a healthier future for tHeM.  The system did a major unlawful nuMbeR on their MotHeR aNd being so severely tortured by Land Law, Medical aNd LDS Church... 
I will never BE the saMe.  I imagine what it would BE like to SEE my childrens faces again but at tHe saMe tiMe the 'False Flag' war aNd terrorist attack that I went through has cHaNged ME in ways that I simply caN't explain, leaving ME so traumatized aNd in pure shock that Solitude is about ALL I AM strong enough to maintain myself in at tHe moMeNt.  Holidays will never BE tHe saMe, particularly that of Christmas, grieving for my Father in Heaven who went before ME aNd sacrificed his life to protect ME aNd our plaNet aNd what is left of the Constitution.  
I have trust aNd faith only in my Heavenly FatHeR that HE will snatch up the serpent aNd 'son of perdition' that continues to attack and lurk in the shadows aNd restore a more solid foundation aNd balance in returning to my GaRdeN his true Son aNd my ooak true Beloved LoVe in this MotHeR 
aNd Brave WoMaNs 'Book of Life' I dReAm to experience a 'Golden Age' of enlightenment of thriving prosperity, true inherent land aNd full protection aNd promises aNd blessing for tHe coming New Year.  I dReAm this for so maNy otHers who have been gravely affected with their families being unjustly torn apart aNd robbed of their inherit rights aNd dReAms.  Every prayer aNd every breath I take, I pray for REAL restoration to take place aNd for the lip service aNd propaganda to eNd aNd for a REAL actual solid Promise Land to begin...
'tHaNk YOU Heavenly FatHeR for helping ME secure my Rights right down to REAL medicine aNd tHe BeAutiFuL healthy food, water aNd plaNet YOU cReAted for ME aNd 'tHaNk YOU' to my REAL Messiah aNd Beloved LoVe to my ooak HeArt aNd Soul

Saturday, December 20, 2014

GaRdeN of Eden

To the Ghost or Man or 'Son of Perdition' that tries to play a Lord or King that is chasing ME,
left ME falling knowing YOU cheated on my dReAms 
aNd your man made Cross, all the way into the GaRdeN of Eden...

YOU doN't get to say the words 'I LoVe YOU' to ME
when I know YOU aRe with aNd loViNg aNotHeR aNd otHeRs
YOU will BE chasing forever because YOU took advantage of soMeoNes 
REAL journey aNd Will, took advantage of their HeArt aNd Soul aNd left ME
with your BIG lie aNd made ME pay for it.  YOU used my dReAms aNd dared to steal
my birthright as a Queen.  A thief in the night aNd YOU take advantage of WoMeN, site unseen
 I will always BE goNe to YOU because YOU copy wrote my HeArt aNd took off with aNotHeR
I AM not second best or your latest Bible Muse, to cover up the biggest lie in the GaRdeN of Eden 
I AM Royalty, so when YOU made your move, and didn't bother to make your bed aNd played your gaMe on ME aNd a whole lot of WoMeN fRoM the dust of the earth, 
my Heavenly Father heard ALL that YOU promised aNd said.
YOU even preached about it in your man made Bible and yet YOU aRe the hypocrite.
Please STOP telling the WoRld YOU died for my sins, wHeN last 'EYE' of the Soul
reMeMbeRs is that I was crucified for yours, with YOU, died aNd rose again in 
REAL true loVe of tHe FatHeR aNd true Beloved aNd not tHe 'Son of Perdition'   Now I can SEE you oNly wanted to use ME, so I know now why I left YOU aNd continued walking as a REAL true aNd faithful Queen.

~ ~ ~
In fond memory of Eve who in a Garden of Eden story tHe way man wrote her in, SHE never stood a cHaNce in a gaRdeN full of thieves, fRoM a perverted snake to an Adam aNd a fraud Jesus who takes off running, I will always commend Eve for tying tHeM up to a tree
aNd have tHe courage to begin again with her own true LoVe StoRy aNd REAL solid dReAms
oNly this tiMe SHE isn't brainwashed aNd mind controlled into man's corrupt abusive lies of submission.  Here's to walking in 'The Way' her way

~writer, artist and activist poeticgarden

Monday, December 15, 2014

Rightful Inheritance

who DO YOU tHiNk YOU aRe trying to steal my birthright aNd taking soMetHiNg that wasn't yours... YOU bet I haVe rights aNd I AM taking tHeM ALL back with a Legal Will aNd with every eternal bReAtH GOD gaVe ME... I doN't ask for soMetHiNg that is inherently miNe

Defending tHe Crown aNd TRUE KiNgdoM
StaNdiNg up to True Justice, Redemption, HuMaN Civil Disability Rights 
to tHe 'Golden Age' of thriving, prosperity aNd REAL Healthcare


Sunday, December 14, 2014

Perfect Flaws

flaws aRe a perfect tHiNg to haVe, tHey teach us to BE more foRgiViNg to ourselves aNd wake~up to SEE moRe of God's LoVe... "tHaNk YOU" God for LoViNg ALL of my imperfections aNd flaws aNd for taking ME as I AM... 


Saturday, December 13, 2014

Steadfast in Faith

Art in Review
deSigN #150 'Cherish'
8x8 'ooak' Scrapbook Art Work

staying steadfast in prayer aNd faith, I was drawn back to this ooak Art Piece 'Cherish' 
though I have been crushed in spirit aNd persecuted greatly, I know that my oNe True Savior aNd Beloved lives in ME aNd gave his life for ME that I might live out my days in True LoVe,
solid Faith aNd Hope, following his path aNd not that of corrupt man made visions.
No matter how maNy 'False Flags' aNd False Churches may display themselves before my soul, 
or a Constitution or Bibles that have been cHaNged countless tiMes for mans greed to get gain
I kNoW without a shadow of a doubt I was made aNd reborn in the image of my oNe TRUE GOD...

I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.
~Galatians 2:20

'tHaNk YOU' Heavenly Father for your oNe TRUE LOVING SON, tHe oNe whom I follow daily in my HeArt, tHe oNe my spirit has been tattooed with in my forehead, wiNgs aNd very soul
No matter how many journeys aNd paths I have been persecuted on or deceived in, I kNoW that my Life aNd LoVe oNly beloNgs to YOU aNd to my oNe TRUE LOVE of your Son.  
I 'tHaNk YOU' aNd cherish the bravery, self discipline aNd determination YOU have instilled in ME, to break free fRoM mans bondage or fRoM the son of perdition who attempts to display himself as my Beloved aNd is not aNd set free ALL those who have tried to tear apart my TRUE LoVe for thee.  For those who have attempted to crush redemption aNd justice on my 'Book of Life' 
aNd Legal Disability Will to my oNe TRUE Father in Heaven.
To those who have died with YOU in true LoVe, who have taken upon their cross of sacrifice to make way for truth, righteousness aNd to restore your oNe aNd oNly true KiNgdoM, the oNe that lives on in my HeArt. I need no man made Church or Temple to fiNd YOU there,  I need not seek the outer world to fiNd YOU resting within ME.  
I will never give up on YOU because YOU never give up on ME.
{I still BELIEVE IN 398.2}

~ ~ ~

8x8 'ooak' Scrapbook Art Work
Dedicated to my Heavenly FatHeR aNd to my TRUE LoViNg Son
aNd to my Children, my Guardian Angel faiRies aNd MotHeR Nature
activist aNd artist to REAL HuMaN Civil Disability Rights aNd
TRUE Healthcare Reform

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Her Vision

an EPIC war against WoMeN aNd SHE survived the flaMe... SHE knows about their dirty deeds fRoM Organized Religion aNd Government evil gaMes. It ALL started with a Book that was meant for REAL true LoVe, for justice and redemption aNd promises fRoM above aNd what SHE discovered was a man's Bible against WoMeN in ALL forms of slavery, their power, greed aNd moNey aNd justification for man to keep running.  SHE even held up her own cross to save tHeM for ALL they had doNe, fRoM stealing her rightful laNd, to destroying an actual Constitution.  
This is what they DO to the WoMeN, MotHeR or Sister, it's ALL my DNA knows.  
So doN't tell the WoMaN that births YOU life to just get over it, stop the fight, let go.  SHE realized tHeN, it was her crown they despised aNd couldn't kill tHe WoMaN who brought tHeM their life.  Every dagger, every bullet, every word of theirs became a lie.  SHE realized their man made Bible aNd corrupt system was their giant lie... to obstruct the WoMaN aNd MotHeR, her rightful place on earth as it is in HeAveN, so SHE started writing out her own constitutional words to new birth. Where each line in every corrupt man made Bible or Mans Constitution deceitfully written, started with tHe WoMaN aNd MotHeR first before mans corrupt visions

artist and activist of REAL Human Civil Disability Rights
walking in LoVe with my Heavenly FatHeR aNd True Beloved King

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Pillar of Strength

'Over throw the system and stand in a pillar of strength'
Never attempt to overthrow a Queen 


Monday, December 8, 2014






Sunday, December 7, 2014



I have given it all my might, I doN't know what else to DO fRoM bedside, I laid my life down for this true aNd REAL Pro Life sustainable medicine aNd resource for the earth for not just ME but for otHeRs in need aNd have literally been stoned over this.  I carry a cross of a War Crime victim/survivor of Political Religious aNd Medical torture, rape aNd maiming over this. 42yrs of pure hell aNd slavery with incomplete Human Civil Disability Rights. Unless soMeoNe truly hears our voice, notHiNg will ever cHaNge aNd peoples fight will always BE in vain aNd silenced...  fRoM those who have coMe before us, even that of the original fRaMers of the Constitution. I have literally given it my all, even with a Legal Disability Will to tHe FatHeR... I cling to my bed weeping constantly in maddening prayer for a drop of hope, tHeRe is notHiNg I can humanly aNd physically DO anymore aNd cry out for help to this madness.  I AM a living witness to the torture the affliction this has caused, lives lost aNd corrupt Government obstructing justice aNd driving people to pure isolation, endless slavery aNd suicide because they aRe left with NO hope even after they have gone past the breaking point aNd given it their all.

As 'Melvin Bond' said:
It's a statutory construction designed to pit "medical use" against "industrial use" 
Until we REPEAL cannabis prohibition ENTIRELY, these "manufactured distinctions" WILL CONTINUE FOREVER, because we'll keep fighting OURSELVES, and we'll make sure that we keep paying ever more for the privilege of getting other people to write more restrictions on our lives.


on the edge of NO hope aNd end the insanity with a dash of...
I must be delusional to think the best is yet to coMe
my body mind and spirit was never made for legislation, it was meant to thrive and prosper.
42yrs of pure slavery and medical religious and political torture aNd obstruction of justice. A crushed spirit aNd violation of a Legal Disability Will. I have even asked in writing for the corrupt State of Utah aNd Wasatch Mental Health to OBEY my Legal Disability Will and humanely put ME to sleep if I cannot SEE the light of day for Human Civil Disability Rights and a REAL promised pharmacy and land. I know a lot of YOU will never understand the journey I have walked going through this endless world of slavery and inhumane abuse aNd torture to obtain FREEDOM and RIGHTS. 
I would rather go HOME to my Heavenly FatHeR then to breath in anymore injustice. I can't even imagine the pure hell and insanity it has inflicted on those who's lives that have been ignored and forgotten. The mental aNd psychological abuse aNd torture has been so deeply marked and social media and facebook, twitter and blogger are my last place to plead for this insanity to end. 

Saturday, December 6, 2014

Will of the Father

Because YOU disobeyed the Will of tHe FatHeR aNd deliberately caused harm on a MotHeRs Legal Disability Will, this is why your Church aNd corrupt system is in chaos aNd in a Fallen State. It's not my fault that YOU deceived tHe WoMaN, crushed her in spirit, lied to her, obstructed justice 
aNd didN't OBEY
Can soMeoNe point ME in the right direction for a REAL Promised Land aNd promised pharmacy aNd actual HuMaN Civil Disability Rights because ALL I have discovered is a 'Rabbit Hole' of nonsense aNd a very delusional corrupt system that likes to keep tHe war on woMen going aNd use their knowledge aNd wisdom for mans greed aNd gain

if I went through oNe life with no rights being Politically Religiously aNd Medically tortured aNd maimed to death by tHe LDS Mormon Church aNd State, now this life with no complete Human Civil Disability Rights aNd no promised pharmacy aNd a crushed Legal Disability Will served up by tHe very corrupt system that tortured ME in tHe fiRst place, then what the "F" AM I doing here?
Last I checked slavery was abolished.

activist aNd Freedom Fighter for Human Civil Disability Rights ~ poeticgarden

Wednesday, December 3, 2014


to set the oppressed FREE aNd break every yoke

Tuesday, December 2, 2014


if Falling in LoVe with a REAL TRUE King is a SIN, then I haVe NO problem walking naked as a SAINT in TRUE LoVe aNd crushing the son of perdition